My 2023 Rebirth

This year has been full of experiences. I have learned, I have lost, I have loved, I have hurt, I have mended relationships and closed the chapter on others. I thank God for everything that has happened to me this year and for giving me clarity. It has been a year of sight, confirmation, and revelation. I've learned who was here for me, and I’ve learned my place in the lives of others. I have acquired knowledge, I have loved, and I am loved. I’ve been remembered, forgotten, looked over, appreciated and unappreciated. I know of some individuals who have talked ill about me privately and can’t show love publicly because of how their peers will view that hypocritical behavior. It all has given me power.

I don’t have anything to prove to anyone about my integrity, my loyalty, or my character. I have created safe spaces for people to be free and seen, and I love that. I’ve watched my children grow and bloom into outstanding adults. I have become closer and in tune with myself, and I have fallen in love with my husband repeatedly.

I have witnessed the unfaithful souls of people who call themselves “real,” and I have felt the energy of the animosity from those who aren't brave enough to share their genuine opinions about me.

I've learned the power of advocating for myself. I understand why it is necessary to clear out the static and to be okay with what that allows to release. I value authentic core connections, and I am proud to walk other paths to start anew. I am free! I don’t care about how people perceive me or the decisions I deem worthy of my happiness.

I know my gifts, and I will not allow humans to dump their insecurities in my lap to appease their ego. I see and am aware of my value, and I am proud of that. My energy is electric, and I vow only to share that with worthy people. I don’t give off mediocre anything, and I won’t accept it- not anymore.

This entire blog may seem a little self-absorbed, and today, in this moment, I will bask in it because, for so long, I doubted myself and my abilities. Timid of rejection, longing to be accepted, knowing how judgemental people are about my outer shell, and not even taking the opportunity to learn, understand, and appreciate the depths of my inner self. I don't have to be liked or get “likes”; I’m okay with that, but I will be respected. And while I am still a work in progress, I take great pride in how far I have come. Knowing that with the work I continue to put in, I will be pleasing in His eyes.

Signing off until Spring- Ranata

Happy Hibernation